Sunday, December 11, 2011

So its you... Naw, its the Snow in my Eyes

I am walking in the shade, looking at trinkets at the trade show somewhere in Georgia. Can't really recall what city, but I see a lot of signs with peaches so I take it that I am there. As I shuffle around other viewers, I see some crystal jewelry that catches my eye. There is one that is a deep pink, something like raspberry lemonade on a hot summers night. I bend over to look at it, and I feel someone's hands grab my waist. 

They were familiar hands, hands that have never seen a manicure bowl, but soft enough to be familiar with baby oil... Since I knew no one that lived in the peach state anymore - most of them were on deployment or been transferred to another duty station, I cautiously turn around and all I seen was tattoos and dark, Godiva chocolate arms. When I look up, the mysterious man that carried his Creed cologne with his demeanor then grabbed my face and looked me in my eyes as if I was the last piece of rib on the bar-b-que. He licked his lips and said...

DAMN NOAH GET OFF OF ME!!! Yes, my dog is a hater - he woke my ass up. And yaw know I tried falling back to sleep so I can finish that dream... It was too damn late! So yes, that was the last piece of action I have had in a while... Well does that even count? Anywho, let me ask you guys and gals... is it the holidays that make folks want to be all booed up... is that natural? I refuse to be anyone's holiday relationship, but I am not gonna lie, it sounds tempting.

I think because you see so many parties with the husbands and the wives, significant others, etc that you swore that your co-workers/associates didn't have or mention the entire 11 months prior to. Maybe someone has stolen my rent a boo concept already!! So let me know, would you be someone's other half for the holidays then get the peace sign after Valentines day?

Damn... yea thats it, just DAMN

So before anyone goes freaking out... this post isn't all extra depressing. Well not yet.

I haven't really been as thankful as I should be for everything I have, haven't had yet, and for what I thought I wanted and found out it wasn't all that. 2011 has been a hell of a year, and I really didn't have to be here, but my higher being felt the need to let the world bask in my neurotic greatness so I should be happy right?

I am... but I desire more!

I guess I feel that I don't do enough to get to where I want to be... Granted its hard when your working full time and finishing up a Masters program and a Certificate program, its hard not to want to crawl in your bed after work/school and say go away world! But I think its an excuse that I use to not do more... Am I being too hard on myself or do I just know better? Its getting to the point where I am not interested in school anymore. What can I do to help with burn out cause that is what I am feeling like? Let me know if any of you have had that same feeling.